Just a means of Journaling

Lets see how this goes! I have decided to journal on a blog. I definitely do not think people will be enthralled with my daily activities. Why would they? I'm a wife, mom, teacher, crafter. Just an ordinary girl in a small town. I am currently working towards a healthier lifestyle that will allow me to lose (hopefully) 50 lbs. Who knows what will happen from day to day!

I have just woken up from a two hour nap. What did I dream about in that two hours? Well......I told you I was on a diet right? So......I dreamed about cookies.......soft, homemade, chocolate chip cookies! In my dream I ate the entire container. In my dream they were baked by me for my 6th grade students. Did I share them in my dream? NO.....I didn't....shamefully in my dream I took them to my classroom as a surprise, one in which I never revealed....instead I sneaked a cookie or two throughout the day and ate the entire batch! Yes...that is what is on my mind right now.....chocolate chip cookies.
Have you seen the orange little weight watchers monster on tv commercials? Well......don't worry, he's not after you ....he's following me! I know he is! He is temptation and he is at every turn I make. I have found myself watching television while holding the remote. Why you ask? Well to change the channel from the commercials of course. Every commercial seems to be directed at sabotaging any chance of forgetting about the very foods I am trying to avoid. Oh, and of course every one of those commercials if followed by one in which they are telling you how to LOSE weight! Yea, right! But I'm gonna give it my best shot! I will be forty in September and I am determined that 40 is the magical year that I will transform myself into a 50 lbs lighter ME. I am going to plug away here and share my ups and downs along the way. I am going to journal about my moods in this journey. I must warn you though...you may log in to find someone has taken over my body.....someone with a grumpy disposition. Someone you may not recognize as the person I am today. I know this from experience. Dieting is not and has never been a pleasant experience for me. I will try my best to stay positive, but first and foremost, I'm going to be honest. I want to use this blog as a way to go back and analyze my thoughts and actions along the way. You see.....for me, this will be a therapy of sorts. A way to reflect and get myself back on track when I stumble. Hopefully, at the end of this journey, 50lbs lighter, I will look back and laugh and know how far I came. I will know that it was all worth it. I will know I can do anything I set my mind to. But, for now, I will just end this blog and go fight my chocolate chip cookie craving, and hide from the orange, furry monster!